Philomene Long, Poet of Venice Beach

I met Philomene Long last year at a poetry reading at Vox Pop in Brooklyn. I knew of her as a veteran of the Venice Beach, California beat poetry scene and as a filmmaker whose documentary The Beats: An Existential Comedy I once reviewed (favorably) at LitKicks. Onstage at Vox Pop, she had a healthy ferocity that reminded me of Anne Waldman, and a strong artistic/spiritual core that reminded me of Patti Smith.

I talked to her afterwards about the ongoing Los Angeles poetry community, about her memories of her close friend Charles Bukowski, and about her very cherished memories of her husband and fellow Venice Beach scenester/poet John Thomas (with whom she’d co-authored an affectionate portrait of their mutual friend, Bukowski in the Bathtub). I was already captivated by her confident poetic self-assurance, but I became especially fascinated after she revealed an unusual fact: before she became an enthusiastic fellow-traveller with the poets and hippies of Southern California, she had been a Catholic nun.

I had to know more about this, and the poet allowed me to initiate an email interview after she returned home to California. Meet Philomene Long:

Levi: You are the first poet I’ve ever met who’s once been a nun. In fact, I think you are the first person I’ve ever met who’s once been a nun. Can you tell me what drove you to make such dramatic life choices?

Philomene: Beatitude drove me. In Jack Kerouac’s words: “It is because I am Beat, that is, I believe in beatitude and that God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son to it … Who knows, but that the universe is not one vast sea of compassion actually, the veritable holy honey, beneath all this show of
personality and cruelty?”

I made most of my unique and dramatic life choices before age 8. The first (that I recall) was to sit still.

At age 4: “I will sit!” in a backyard with a woman I called “Miss Aunt Whistle” (because she whistled) and she saying to me: “Sit still, and a small gold bird will come.” I chose to sit so still and for so long until I could see every blade of grass, to sit bone quiet, until finally disappearing into a luminousity. And a small gold bird did come.

At age 5: “I will never take my head off my mother’s lap!” In church — the sound of her gentle Irish tones saying, “God loves you. God loves you. God loves you” with her hand softly stroking the long strand of my hair. The smell of the pews, the incense. I never wanted to take my head off her lap. And, in some ways, I have not.

Then, at age 7: “I will become a Saint like you, St. Theresa. I WILL BECOME A NUN!”. At age 8, finally after writing my first poem in memoriam to my deceased pet duck (“Remember the Day You Were Just Out of Luck” ), I became a poet.

Levi: What do nuns and poets have in common?

Philomene: They live as skinless ones. No insulation. Stripped. Utterly naked. Nuns live lives of dedicated poverty.

In fact the first vow all nuns take is the vow of poverty. The first “Beatitude” (for nuns as well as all Christians) is: “Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” John Thomas, my husband, said: “I have Philomene, a pen, a pad, shirt and pants.” If you start wanting more, it fills you up, leading to a poverty of the heart and mind.

Buddhism is the religion of the Beats, but many of the Beat writers were Buddhists without leaving Catholicism. Keroauc said every night before he went to sleep he prayed to Buddha, Christ and Mary. Kenneth Rexroth was both Buddhist and Catholic, and was instrumental in bringing poetry and philosophy of the East to the West. Philip Lamantia returned to the Catholic church. I recall him saying his influence was St. Francis, the saint of poverty.

Levi: And how does Catholicism inform your life today?

Philomene: The church that burned John of Arc to the stake for dressing like a man is not the church that canonized her. The church that imprisoned St. John of the Cross on suspicion of heresy is not the one that made him a “Doctor of the Church.”

As a child my life was informed by the “Little Way” of St. Theresa of Liseiux; as a young adult by the way of St. Francis of Assisi who stripped naked, and vowed poverty.

The Catholicism that informs my life today is: Pope John XXIII Catholicism; Thomas Merton Catholicism, Dorothy Day Catholicism, Catholic Workers Catholicism and Martin Sheen Catholicism; the murdered Jesuits of El Salvador Catholicism; the anonymous nuns all over the world at this very moment on their knees in prayer or bent over the dying in Calcutta; nuns comforting the mourning at Holy Cross cemetery in Culver City; the nun shot down to bleed out alone on the ground for protecting trees Catholicism; the Jesuits who went to Japan and became Zen masters; the anonymous author of the “Cloud of Unknowing” Catholicism.

Levi:As a Catholic, how do you think difficult issues like abortion rights, euthanasia etc. can be resolved in our country?

Philomene: Within Catholicism? Or generally? I firmly believe in separation between church and state. In no way should they overlap. It is the foundation of our country.

As for within Catholicism … it’s an enormously complex institution. Catholicism is not a one cell being, an amoebae, a planarian. It is a complex entity with — although this seems contrary at first glance –a foundation of democracy. At the same time it exercises the divine right of kings.

Within the church there are many divisions. There are Catholics for Free Choice (e.g. pro-abortion rights), and there is the ARCC (“Association for the Rights of Cathoics in the Church”) and the WOC (Women’s Ordination Committee) — as well as Opus Dei, a group that would return the church to medieval times, including the practice of flaggelation.

Personally, I do not speak for any institution. I support Catholics for Free Choice, ARCC, and WOC. As for the center, the Great Heart — a phrase from Thomas Merton runs through my mind: ‘The seemingly boundless source of sanctity within the Catholic Church.”

I am a Zen Catholic. I cannot practice one without the other. Absolutely can not. I believe Kenneth Rexroth was like that. His was a Catholicism of great intellectual depth. For years he studied and wrote about Thomas Aquinas.

Here’s something I personally find to be true: Buddhism is a religion for ordinary life, and Christianity is a religion for crises. In my daily life Zen is the predominant practice until I am in crisis. The instant that crisis hits … Philomene in no longer sitting crosslegged in front of a statue of a serene Buddha. She is on her knees before her enormous wooden cross (one that opens up and contains all the ingredients to perfom the Last Rites).

Levi: What’s your favorite poem you’ve ever written?

Philomene: “La Purissima” used to be my favorite poem because of how it came through me. Pure — directly from the source to the page. After writing it, I changed only one word.

“La Purissima” means “The Pure” — a Latin term used for Mary, the Mother of God. Although the poem is giving voice to a California Mission, it is also a self portrait of sorts:

La Purissima

I am not here
Bent, brittle
Weed among weeds
Not here
Palms fragrant with lavender
Hair meandering through
The pale grasses
I can no longer remember
I preferred all martyrdoms
To this dry, s
ilent place
There were nights when I feared
My own blood. My eyes
Became wounds. They devoured
Me. And the flies. Ten thousand
Tangled devils. My palms scoured
Dry and thin as communion wafers.
There were nights when the hymns I sang
Became the bones of the Friar, the dust
Upon the graves of stillborn Indians
The winds of La Purisima
Through the pale grassed
I can no longer remember

My current favorite poem, and one I now live with, is: “Pieta In Los Angeles, Part 2”. It’s a meditation before a replica of Michaelangelo’s Pieta.

For two years after my husband John Thomas’s death, my greatest solace was to stand before a replica sculpture of the Pieta, which is down the hall from where John is entombed at Holy Cross Cemetery. I would look upon the Pieta until I became the Pieta.

Pieta in Los Angeles, Part 2

The marble corpus dangles
Precariously over the Mother’s lap
Her right hand alone supports him
Fingers splayed, deep into his rib cage
Her knees apart
As one would balance an infant
Above him, her soft breasts
Seemingly turn marble into flesh

His hair thick with blood
Blood into stone
Lips parted in death
Hers pressed gently in speechless grief

The folds of her dress
Run through his fingers
It is almost as if he reaches for her
From his now mute anguish

Her back is straight, head slightly bent
A thin line across her forehead
In her face, a grieving so severe
It becomes serenity

Her left upturned palm
Opened to receive the world’s sorrow
Is at once: a question and acceptance

I reach up
Place my tear-soaked tissue in that hand
In my mind I would climb into the lap
But no, not for me
Not that comfort yet
Must first become
That hand
That face
Rock of sorrow
Eternity in granite
Time and agony
In stone

Later I say that I must become that hand, that face.

Levi: How did you meet John Thomas?

Philomene: We met the morning I was born. This is fact.

John fell in love with me after attending a poetry reading on March 15 (“the ides of March”), 1983 at the “Come Back Inn” in Venice. John had said, “You certainly have not lost your youthful exuberance.” And then “I don’t agree with what you just said, but I appreciate how you said it.” And laughed. At the beginning of the laugh he was not in love. At the end of that laugh he was in love.

We first kissed in the parking spot besides the old Venice jail.

I realized I was in love with John a few weeks later on April 6, 1983, while walking down the Venice Boardwalk with a dozen pink roses in my arms. People stopped what we were doing or saying and stared — looking at me as if I were in love. I thought: “I must be in love.”

We made love for the first time on Good Friday, 1983, at 3:00 pm. 19 years later John would die on Good Friday, 2002, at 3:00pm.

Levi: You and John were close friends with Charles Bukowski. Can you share something about him?

Philomene: Since a focus of your piece is religion, I’ll share this, an excerpt from 8 hours of audio tapes of conversations recorded by John:

John Thomas: (Singing) “Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so.”

Charles Bukowski: I like spiritual songs when they’re really well done.

JT: That’s not spiritual.

CB: Yeah, I know.

JT: That’s a little Sunday school hymn. (Singing) “Carry your Bible with you.”

CB: I heard one on the radio driving on the way to the racetrack. Something like Jesus on the cross and it was beautiful. And they got his hands nailed to the cross and how beautiful it was. And I thought, “These words are good.” These weren’t the exact words, but I translated it that way and I said, “Jesus, this is good.” How beautiful– how they got those spikes in his hands and they’re all singing. God! How beautiful.

13 Responses

  1. Poverty and poetry……Are
    Poverty and poetry…

    …Are just letters away from being the same word. Let’s all take a vow of poetry — though poetry may be an indirect means to the same end.

    In any case: This is a wonderful and illuminating interview, but I always puzzle a bit over people’s insistence that they are simultaneously Buddhist and [Catholic/Jewish/etc]. While most major world religions can be said to promote the same moral principles, popular Buddhism usually has the important distinction of being “godless” — that is, the Buddhist’s main idol is still, essentially, a man.

    I feel that my devotion to Buddhism can be seen as an admission to and acceptance of the fact that there is no salvation for oneself outside of oneself. This meansm, to me: no Jesus Christ, no fluorescent orb of light giving gifts of knowledge from a bush on the top of a magical mountain, and certainly no everlasting life.

    However, as I say this, I am reminded of all the Buddhists I know who interpret the cycle of reincarnation literally — I view it as a metaphor — and hope one day to reach Nibbana. So I can’t claim that all Buddhist beliefs are quite as anti-Christian theology as my own. I even know some Catholics who view the Bible as a literal set of guidelines with a metaphorical reward — heaven within the individual? — which isn’t too far from my understanding of Buddhism.

    Ah well. The Hindu proverb — all roads lead to the same mountaintop — seems appropriate here.

  2. Great Interview!Knocks my
    Great Interview!

    Knocks my bored and boring socks off. Some poets g-o-t it. This interview does. I knew there was a reason I keep coming back here. More like this one! Yes!

  3. gets the Thomas Merton juices
    gets the Thomas Merton juices flowin

    Reading her is like reading Thomas Merton’s The Way of the Pilgrim.

    It’s good to feel that flow again.

    Loved this Q&A:

    Levi: What do nuns and poets have in common?

    Philomene: They live as skinless ones.

    Excellent, Levi. Thank you.

  4. Your comments interest me,
    Your comments interest me, Philip, because in my very limited understanding of Buddhism, my impression has always been that Buddhism was indeed the one “religion” that allowed for additional beliefs, or lack of beliefs, without compromising the practice of Buddhism. But again, my knowledge on the subject is limited.

  5. The Two PoemsPurissima and
    The Two Poems

    Purissima and Pieta in Los Angeles, Part 2 are such fine poems. This is good stuff. This whole interview was a pleasure to read.

  6. At this moment, I have many
    At this moment, I have many half-formed thoughts that I wish I could express. I can relate to the concept of turning, in times of crisis, to whatever we were taught at a young age. Philomene says “In my daily life Zen is the predominant practice until I am in crisis. The instant that crisis hits … Philomene in no longer sitting crosslegged in front of a statue of a serene Buddha. She is on her knees before her enormous wooden cross…”

    Jack Kerouac did that near the end of Big Sur, when he is freaking out, cracking up, d.t.’ing or whatever it was. He sees a vision of the cross.

    I’ve also turned to my understanding of Christianity in times of crisis, and it really helped. That’s when the Book of Ecclesiastes became my favorite book in the Bible.

    I’m curious about why some people refer to the word “Catholicism” instead of the word “Christianity.” Is it the form and structure of worship? I wish I could ask Philomene this.

    On top of everything, I’ve been reading about Spinoza. He was a weird cat, in a way. You would almost think he was espousing paganism except that he believe in predetermination, as if a god had set everything up.

  7. Wonderful InterviewLevi, this
    Wonderful Interview

    Levi, this is a great interview. I hadn’t heard of Philomene Long before, but she sounds like a fascinating artist and woman.

    She reminds me a lot of a woman I met many years ago, who, even though not famous at all, was a likewise inspired personality. Her name was Caroline, and I met her while travelling the Middle East in ’89. She was from Australia, a young catholic ex-nun, and we shared a small hostel room in Tiberias/Israel for a while.

    She was an amazing woman — full of energy and humour. After five years of being a nun, she had felt she needed a more immediate experience, and she had left the monastery and her nundom and had begun travelling the world and encountering people and experiences.

    When I met her, she was 28, and was in the country with nothing but a small handbag that contained her purse, her passport, and Gary Snyder’s “Riprap” which she had been reading on the plane. Her luggage had gotten lost on the flight, but she didn’t mind nor search for it and washed her T-shirt and underwear every night in the room’s tiny sink and dried it on the roof, had bought herself a new tootbrush and a bedouin scarf she wore as a skirt, and slept naked underneath the scratchy hostel blankets.

    She’d been in that place for over a month when I arrived. During daytime, she cared for a very old and very kind Catholic priest who lived in a tiny church in the old city’s lanes, a place that wasn’t even visible from the outside. She washed his clothes and brought him food and and swept the floors and spent hours discussing God and the world with him. This guy was as amazing as his church he lived in, which was the size of a living-room, very dark, very cosy, very spiritual in its atmosphere, and complete with his bookshelves and bed beside the altar. He was far into his 90s, small and bent, with bright white hair and robes, warm dark eyes, and an astonishingly strong voice. I accompanied Caroline at her visitis to him several times, and was deeply impressed by his intelligence, sensibility and kindness, and most of all, by his empathetic clearness.

    At night, Caroline turned out to be an impressing word artist, joker and thought juggler. She told crude and earthy jokes that cracked me up, balanced along poems and song lyrics in a way that inspired us both to witty coinages, word twister songs, and poem-like philosophical excurses, and had an ability to spiral down from complexely complicated and lyrical starting points to simple and clear statements that still contained it all.

    We had a great time together. That room was our shared abode for about two weeks, before I travelled on. After that, we had letter contact for another couple of years, before it died down somehow, as we both continued with our lives. But I still remember her energy and enthusiasm, her inspired use of words and poetry, and her love and lust for all aspects of earthly and spiritual life.

  8. yes… that was exactly the
    yes… that was exactly the sentence that caught me as well!

  9. And that is a wonderful
    And that is a wonderful story. I love stories like that.


    Panta Rhei, I think you and Judih and Philomene are three cool sisters.

  10. thank youKnow my joy to know
    thank you

    Know my joy to know such people exist… the insights and Truth — AMEN !

  11. Philomene Long and John
    Philomene Long and John Thomas

    Right this minute, in LA, on cable access, there is a video of Philomene Long and John Thomas reading their poems.

  12. ChandelierI feel lightness

    I feel lightness coming from these poems. Bright, intense, pure pathos. I guess, words are not enough to describe them.

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